Grace

Warning, dark content should you highlight and read it. Wrote for a forum topic.


Goddess I'd glimpse, 
on my recurring dreams
Yearn for her, materialized, 
a collection, my possesion.
Though chance no being, worthy,
of her crowning beauty.
Either imperfect or incomplete.
Ungodly ephemeral, decaying.


Fuck it, I'll just create my own;
Immortal beauty.
"Grace" her name, shall be
Now the physical form
Where shall I begin?
Forgotten whores, non will miss


Praise the lord, 
forthwith commencement, my quest
A blessing bestowed upon me, a crucial piece.
A whore,
Angelic facial features worthy of Grace
Accompanied with dazzling blue eyes
Inviting as though morning sky
Spared from seeking, gorging another's eye.
Paid her a hundred cash, 
led her to my recluse.
Longed for this head, 
knocked her out cold.
Dexterously severed it, for Grace's needs
"My oh my, just the head! how graceful"




"Great Success" , 
Grace soon to live.
Now, for slender smooth limbs.
Effortlessly accessible, no sweat.
Another vanished whore.


Then, torso of a virgin, 
untainted and godly
One who took a vow of chasity
Fundamentalist church, i prowled
A naive, benevolent nun
Glaring weakness
welcoming exploit
A believer, my guise
Masquerading my intent
We've become friends
Cheese to mice
Provincially laid trap
...


Finally, assembled pieces
As if a master tailor, me 
Needles and thread
Piece by piece
The joy, God felt
When he created men


"grace.. Grace... GRace... 
GRAce! GRACe! GRACE!!!"


At long last, Grace...
What was once, only a glimpse
Now awaits my beloving glare
My everlasting Grace in the cold

Singularism - Human

Loving another,
an abstract emotion
i yet apperceive
a dogma
i give no accredit

psychosis narcissist
In the name of Love
blood red
seldom rose red

sanctimonious debauchee
In the name of Love
lust for skin
never intellect

mentertained,
when love ends in chaos
In the name of love
Helen;
God;

hermetic sanity
without worries
overwhelming jealousy;
sleepless night
when you are not by me
anguish thoughts
fete

anarchy peace
without gender intellectual inequality
absurd theories;
shell asymmetry
reflects wisdom
facile thoughts
who ought cook

effortlessly appreciates individuality, me

have no need to compare
every mind intrigues
loving one i'm reticent
loving all my clandestine

Medusa

She is beauty personified
Libidinous, the folks define
Entrancing, window of her soul
Her hair, golder than gold
Juicy red, tantalising lips
Her figure, beyond greek

She a priestress,
In Athena's temple.
Took a vow of chasity
Never she yearn to dishonor it

Poseidon's visit
Devastates her life
Allured by her beauty
Lust, he ravaged her divine

Athena caught the sight
Twisted ego, fueled with jealousy
Furious frenzy
"Hence, who cast eye upon thee, shall be petrified"
A curse lay upon the sufferer
Tragically beautiful "Medusa"

Untitled

A passion for mystery
Ferret hidden wonders
What is beyond those puffy white haze
Flew beyond it, faced no halt
A majestic black, solemn and forlorn
Boundless nightmare should I travel forth
...Mysteries...Hidden Wonders...

Adventurous spirit, no rebuff
"To the edge, here i come"
Dodged rolling stones
Soared through this vast darkness
A sign of life!
Shining spirit glowing merciful light,
A benign presence
'Twas unable to speak
Stayed by herside, kept me warm
After a campanionless travel
Rejoice for a spirit lives out here
...Boom... She imploded
Dispersed, leaving no trace.
She must've hated me.

Must end this adventure with haste
Crave to return where love is
"To the edge, here i come"
Whilst going forth, chance upon
a garden of shining spirits
Afraid of rejection, i evade
Gliding right, to my suprise
Distant glimmering lights, countless spirits
Maneuver a clumsy somersault, tried to escape
As though a giant halo
They've encircled me with no spitefulness
I fly forth,
as if destroying their balance, they scattered
but swiftly encircling me, once again
Vaguely, leading me
Uniformly, holding up this halo stance

Mysteries and Wonders awaits me
I shadow their movement
Whilst holding a distance,
Make certain that I'm inmost
A mysterious wind swept by
My amarantine seeping away
Merciless needles prickling
Cold.. A virgin to cold
freshly felt
Abruptly, spirits repositioned behind me
As though ready for battle
Me for a leader
Solemn atmosphere, defeaning silence
A monstrous pallid blue sphere, visible
Aura emitting evil
Nothing could live near
My natural weakness

Army of light, stormed the front
Spirt's only offense, a self destructing foray
Evil retaliates with solid ice spears
Waves of collision on the evil sphere
The beginning of a war, we fought forever
Prolonged battle, chilling aura
Stole my immortality
For I've never known death
Ought to triumph over Evil
Muster up my remaining strength
Released the sacred force within me
My ultimate attack
Vibrant red across the sphere surface

Flame that shan't extinguish
I left...
though my "Wonder" immortal

Underdog

A man of law
I aspired to be
Worship me a hero
"I Serve JUSTICE"
But as i grow
I learned, discovered
How despicable the "law" is.
Self interest hypocrisy
I dismissed this false justice
A gray sheep in a black barn
proclaim to be white
Without a goal, I lost my drive
Diminished reason to read and write

Scored a four lack of one
a five might land me with a goody goody bunch
Sent to a class,
Full of wretched vile
Parents tell their kids,
to bully so not to be bullied
and likewise does mine
A vicious cycle, I disincline
Loathe the time and the grind
Can't stand it, I jumped the ship

Found an outlet in film and arts
fictitious world, fanciful poems
Motivated to read and write
To create, covey a world of my own
But a tad late, I'm always late
Bad in language, bad in math
No paper to prove my depth
stuck with the hour wage of six fifty
struggling to move a limb in society,
that dismisses my act as an irrationality.

I'm lower than a dog in society's eyes
No point in grieving
I've become as nonchalant like a cat
Ignoring it all
Still dreaming for one day finding empathy

Balance 1989 (Short Film) Review

A thought provoking, surreal, dark and cold art film on society.

The film is set on a balance board, with 5 human look-alike species living on it, the numbers behind their back is the only way distinguish between them. Each of them in order to not slip off from the board must accommodate with the other 4 to sustain balance. They moved to the end of the board and started fishing, one of them reeled up a box and it changes the "balance". The one who reeled it up wants to keep it for himself but a few curious others wants it too, and there's one of them who wanted just to stay on the board but got suckered into their conflict though they could've just shared it and retain the balance by positioning the chest to the middle. I guess it pretty much reflects on the society.

Too many wealth hogging rich selfish narcissistic assholes around.

A Meet.

are you there
are you not
i am in despair
cling to hope you exist
for i cannot reason my being
for an eternal oblivion i cannot accept

i call out
close my eyes
open my eyes and you are there
decorated with jewelry and gold
grin spread like the waning crescent moon

"i am but just a veil of your fears,
you never needed me nor ever will."

is he good
or is he bad
i am confused
what appeared, wasn't what i'd thought out to be
i sought, assumed a benignant presence
not a repulsive superficial entity

a test of faith, maybe?
again i call out, earnestly sincerely,
close my eyes
open my eyes and you are there
resembling features but in a poverty stricken state
carefree gap-toothed giggle

"i am but what you made out to be,
you never needed me nor ever will."