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A passion for mystery
Ferret hidden wonders
What is beyond those puffy white haze
Flew beyond it, faced no halt
A majestic black, solemn and forlorn
Boundless nightmare should I travel forth
...Mysteries...Hidden Wonders...

Adventurous spirit, no rebuff
"To the edge, here i come"
Dodged rolling stones
Soared through this vast darkness
A sign of life!
Shining spirit glowing merciful light,
A benign presence
'Twas unable to speak
Stayed by herside, kept me warm
After a campanionless travel
Rejoice for a spirit lives out here
...Boom... She imploded
Dispersed, leaving no trace.
She must've hated me.

Must end this adventure with haste
Crave to return where love is
"To the edge, here i come"
Whilst going forth, chance upon
a garden of shining spirits
Afraid of rejection, i evade
Gliding right, to my suprise
Distant glimmering lights, countless spirits
Maneuver a clumsy somersault, tried to escape
As though a giant halo
They've encircled me with no spitefulness
I fly forth,
as if destroying their balance, they scattered
but swiftly encircling me, once again
Vaguely, leading me
Uniformly, holding up this halo stance

Mysteries and Wonders awaits me
I shadow their movement
Whilst holding a distance,
Make certain that I'm inmost
A mysterious wind swept by
My amarantine seeping away
Merciless needles prickling
Cold.. A virgin to cold
freshly felt
Abruptly, spirits repositioned behind me
As though ready for battle
Me for a leader
Solemn atmosphere, defeaning silence
A monstrous pallid blue sphere, visible
Aura emitting evil
Nothing could live near
My natural weakness

Army of light, stormed the front
Spirt's only offense, a self destructing foray
Evil retaliates with solid ice spears
Waves of collision on the evil sphere
The beginning of a war, we fought forever
Prolonged battle, chilling aura
Stole my immortality
For I've never known death
Ought to triumph over Evil
Muster up my remaining strength
Released the sacred force within me
My ultimate attack
Vibrant red across the sphere surface

Flame that shan't extinguish
I left...
though my "Wonder" immortal

Underdog

A man of law
I aspired to be
Worship me a hero
"I Serve JUSTICE"
But as i grow
I learned, discovered
How despicable the "law" is.
Self interest hypocrisy
I dismissed this false justice
A gray sheep in a black barn
proclaim to be white
Without a goal, I lost my drive
Diminished reason to read and write

Scored a four lack of one
a five might land me with a goody goody bunch
Sent to a class,
Full of wretched vile
Parents tell their kids,
to bully so not to be bullied
and likewise does mine
A vicious cycle, I disincline
Loathe the time and the grind
Can't stand it, I jumped the ship

Found an outlet in film and arts
fictitious world, fanciful poems
Motivated to read and write
To create, covey a world of my own
But a tad late, I'm always late
Bad in language, bad in math
No paper to prove my depth
stuck with the hour wage of six fifty
struggling to move a limb in society,
that dismisses my act as an irrationality.

I'm lower than a dog in society's eyes
No point in grieving
I've become as nonchalant like a cat
Ignoring it all
Still dreaming for one day finding empathy

Balance 1989 (Short Film) Review

A thought provoking, surreal, dark and cold art film on society.

The film is set on a balance board, with 5 human look-alike species living on it, the numbers behind their back is the only way distinguish between them. Each of them in order to not slip off from the board must accommodate with the other 4 to sustain balance. They moved to the end of the board and started fishing, one of them reeled up a box and it changes the "balance". The one who reeled it up wants to keep it for himself but a few curious others wants it too, and there's one of them who wanted just to stay on the board but got suckered into their conflict though they could've just shared it and retain the balance by positioning the chest to the middle. I guess it pretty much reflects on the society.

Too many wealth hogging rich selfish narcissistic assholes around.

A Meet.

are you there
are you not
i am in despair
cling to hope you exist
for i cannot reason my being
for an eternal oblivion i cannot accept

i call out
close my eyes
open my eyes and you are there
decorated with jewelry and gold
grin spread like the waning crescent moon

"i am but just a veil of your fears,
you never needed me nor ever will."

is he good
or is he bad
i am confused
what appeared, wasn't what i'd thought out to be
i sought, assumed a benignant presence
not a repulsive superficial entity

a test of faith, maybe?
again i call out, earnestly sincerely,
close my eyes
open my eyes and you are there
resembling features but in a poverty stricken state
carefree gap-toothed giggle

"i am but what you made out to be,
you never needed me nor ever will."

Every proclaimed act of "morality" is an act of self interest.

Anyone who proclaim themself as Moralist are self interest, narcissistic individuals, morality only serves as a facade.


Killing is not wrong, it is just a natural instinct, like ants doesn't kill their own species of ants.
If killing our own species is objectively wrong that means ants have moral and if ants have moral, we're immoral for killing any being capable of moral.

Lying- lying is essential to society, if everyone is speaking the truth, the whole fallacious facade of politics will collapse.

Cheating- cheating is also essential to society, if no one is cheating, no one would buy products that they don't need thus consumerism totally contradicts morality.
Politics supports consumerism and consumerism supports advertisement and advertisement lie and cheats by claiming diamond ring is needed to prove "love" .

Respecting elders- Knowing the fact that they'll grow old someday, they expect new generation to respect them without questioning whether or not they deserve the respect. Respect should be earned not predetermined.

What if what that aged individual did in life is nothing respectable? An old rapist should not be respected unless you aspire to be a rapist.

They proclaim incest to be wrong because they want to have sex with other people's daughters.
Prostitution wrong because they don't want to marry someone who had sex with many people.
There is no reason to believe that Incest and prostitution to be wrong except being "immoral" and the reason i gave is rational.

We are different from other species only for our rationality and any other values are invented with it.

Rationality factors in how much information is available, and if morality existed, we probably wouldn't have exist, when human was still a meager race they probably had incestous relationship in order to procreate.

Short Film: Maya Deren - "Meshes of the Afternoon" Review

I got to know this film from imdb's "Similar movies, movies you may like" link, and "Meshes of the Afternoon" was beyond my expectation. Way ahead of its time editing and effect including "slow mo effect", brilliant score, haunting imagery and a captivating story-line in just 13mins.

The movie starts by introducing the actress "Maya Deren" herself and the core elements of the story with an emphasized shot on each of them, and each item might symbolize something, we get flowers, a key, a knife in a loaf of bread, a telephone. After the introduction "Maya Deren" went up to a room, stopped the record player and the film went silent, leading me to believe that the film's previous source of music came from that record player. After switching off the record player Maya Deren seemingly took a nap and things get crazy when the record started playing again without any manual assistance, or so i thought, and Maya Deren meeting a cloak figure with a mirror for a face, like in a dream or an out of body experience, stuck in an endless loop as the story-progress, and ultimately leading to a brilliant conclusion.

Don't miss this.

[Spoiler Alert] My interpretation

I think Maya Deren is portraying a boring housewife life caused by her husband imminently causing her suicide .

Insulting others with the word "Dog"

My country men and china invented scolding people "dog"
i don't know about other people but the dogs i've come across are all friendly and cute.
So i don't get the general idea of insulting someone using the word "dog".
Insulting people for their merits, is absolutely insane. To think of it, to actually feel insulted is rather stupid.
Let's list a few merit, dogs follow orders without questioning, dogs don't question what they are protecting for, dogs are friendly and cute... dogs are as smart as a 2 years old baby and their intelligence doesn't decline when they get old, a well trained dog instinctively know where to pee but humans intelligence, after their peak, might decline and starts forgetting; And since our country are built on a culture with the idealogy that when questioning the law and government is a demerit, what other suitable animal would be better than a "dog" to describe my country people?

Embrace being labeled as "dog" my fellow country man or else you're as unreasonable as a 1 year old baby whining without knowing why you whine.