5/31/2012

Having Fun in Hell

misinterpreted by many
the thralls believe
suffering is eternal here
when what lies above
is anguish forever
for crazies in white veils
sings praises in high pitch groan
to a narcissistic tyrant everyday
a mad house, evidently

reign in hell, joy for the sane
burn your spirit with lovers and friends
this is home for us free spirits
for our concert is forever
here, eistein discovered rave-ity
lou reed jams heroin
the doors sings the beginning
satan and beelzebub
performing wizardry
renounce evil, let's party

5/28/2012

Zombie

'tis a curse
for those who sought
a deathless frame
their sanity deposed
rotten flesh rose
the soul intact
only to perceive
malicious act they
have no control
a driver then
now a passenger
in the dark they roam
as puppet with soul
the limbs drags
reluctantly...
feed... must feed
they feed on what
once was their own
the sad muffled groan
when the crimson chrome
of the cherished, drips
the eyes they cannot close
cursed til a silver bullet
murders their soul



    5/27/2012

    Love? No... I don't know

    you cast your eyes upon my soul
    glance that hurls homing spears 
    hidden in this ocean of consciousness
    for me… only me… solely me
    undodgeable, 
    tho' never did I tried moving a little
    curious, how does it feel
    come into me... oh strange lore
    ...
    the thrust so cold
    so cold..
    even mercury solidifies
    I froze to stone
    no pain but sorrow
    forthwith 
    my heart struggles
    for warmth
    rapidly revs up
    to maximum gear
    my blood boiling
    melt... I melted
    love? No... I don't know. 

    you stole the world i knew
    gone are the colorful hues 
    grayscale now my only view but
    for you... only you... solely you
    colors are vibrant still 
    unfair tho' i never cared before
    a new meaning to colors, you gave
    now I do... oh how alluring
    ...
    As if they've 
    lost their soul
    the others
    their presence bore
    the others
    are droplets 
    blending to a
    puddle of gray liquid
    and you like a
    lamenting white lily
    filament in depressing blue
    afloat graceful
    capturing my every senses
    sorrow so subtle... i feel

    how much i yearn 
    to unravel your curse
    towards you i move
    nonchalant, my posture

    Goodday Milady I'm... 

    ahemm... I'm Dolores

    tickle in your throat
    music to my ears
    melody so mellow
    love? No... I don't know.





    5/25/2012

    yester now

    my shallow gasp
    getting faint
    your mellow whisper 
    in crescendoes

    tears you see
    love's love
    flowing conscious
    your memoirs

    grief you suffer
    the span
    of a falling leaf 
    to earth

    pollens travel
    jubilee birth
    a flower withers
    a cycle served

    mors inevitabilis est, 
    et hora ejus incerta

    vigor afterglow
    the sun had past
    let it go
    sleep to my lullaby

    curious stallion
    galloping with grace
    stumbles upon a lovely view
    her stride slackening

    da-dap da-dap 
    the sound
    slowing down
    it was yester now



    5/23/2012

    psych conspiracy

    red cross emblem, asylum of hope
    nefarious witches in angel's cloak
    gave allegiance to a tyrant lord
    soul exploit outlawed, no more
    spieling cures for ill of the soul
    never will they tell you its toll
    curses that comes along
    obscured, for ego then oblivious

    peasants pleased with pleasantry
    the tyrant's reign unchallenged

    5/22/2012

    Blind sunrise

    loathe sunrise
    bane of my might
    dexterity
    only of the night
    luminous clarity
    warmth for the sight
    world in a blur
    quenching my pride

    lucid smell
    my pinpoint strike
    distinct sound
    truth can be found
    blended trails
    must carry a stick
    chaotic noise
    when the sunrises..
    deranged

    5/20/2012

    Adam and Eve Chapter

    In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth 
    Night and day, the seas, the stars, creatures 
    All in just five days but with no one to appreciate it. 
    Thy all knowing Almighty, pondered and pondered 
    Answered through the looking glass, 

     God
    Holy thou art! 
    Me, Myself, and I!
    I shall create to praise Me
    but no one other than 
    I shall possess the name of divine,
     immortality and deserving glory!

    Dust and mud with thy mystical rites, the first man rose in the image of thee Lord and was given the name "Adam".

     Adam 
    "Eh?" 
    Post-haste Adam lunged onto a deer 
    Ripped and chewed its flesh 
    Blood smears, defiling green 
    A blissful face he exhibits 
    "Good meal, good meal 
    But why am I here?" 


    The ground trembled, the sky violet, earth splits, the Heavens roared “TUNDAR” 
    Adam cowers in fear, the Almighty speaks. 

     God 
    Insolence! 
    I created ye, 
    Thou shalt idolize, thou shalt love Me 
    Me Almighty, all knowing, divinity 
    Me miracles and creations 
    This paradise and ye I've created in just six days 
    Indisputable glory, I deserve! 
    Now praise Me

    Though horrified, Adam recognized God's amazing feats, deserving glory. 

     Adam 
    Praise ye the Lord, ye all knowing pansophy 
    Praise ye the Lord, ye amazing feats, 
    Praise ye the Lord, for creating me 
    Honored and obliged to witness your glory,
    Praise ye the Lord. 
    Having received Adam's gracious words. 
    The earth calmed, heaven fell silent 
    Birds chipping, Deers calling 
    Thee Lord quite gay and merry, 
    Adam given paradise. 
    Shower the Lord with love and praise! 
    A delightful routine Adam enjoyed 
    Benevolent Lord was overjoyed 
    Decided to reward Adam 
    Figured, a derivation of Adam 
    To love and praise Adam himself 

    And God caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept; and He took one of his ribs, and closed 
    up the flesh in its place. 
    Then the rib which the Lord God had taken from Adam to make another Adam but with a twist, body 
    taking a grand shape before the man named Adam but with large breasts and milky flesh, and grand 
    locks of brown hair that touched the back of her knees, and bright blue eyes, shone as the stars in the 
    sky, and the absence of a dragon, replaced with a dimple. 
    She turned to look up to the Holy light in the clouds, parting them, and she fell to her knees in prayer. 

     Eve
    Dearest God, 
    For bringing me here 
    I thank ye! Please 
    allow me to bare wonderful 
    children for thy dearest 
    Adam. Praise thy Holy Father, 
    praise thy Holy spirit, 
    praise ye God! 

    God gave Adam the second coming, the name of Eve and brought her to Adam. 

     God
    My splendid Adam, for your forthright, gratifying praises 
    I present thou Eve, feel Me joy, love and praise thou she shall 
    The dimple on her groin, entrance for ye dragon. 
    Something new Me invented, for thou be'st to spawn more Adams. 
    I've made it pleasurable, thou be'st know what I mean after ye hath tried. 
    Roam this paradise with Eve, witness Me endless miracles, and praise Me. 
    Thou be'st free to feed on any tree and animal in the garden; 
    But ye shan't eat from the golden tree, 
    for when ye eaten, ye be'st deprived from joy.” 

    Adam and Eve then retired back to rest, took ye Lord’s truth 
    and had sex for the first time, the pleasure they felt, quickening breaths. 
    The music the couple have made pleasured ye Lord’s ear. 


     Adam                                             Eve
    “Oh my God, Praise                       “God oh God, praise  
    ye the Lord”                                    ye the Lord”  

    And in that time, she spent it with Adam as a blissful and obedient wife just as God instructed 
    for her to be. She did not doubt, did not question, but obeyed. It was as God had said directly he wanted. 
    In this ignorance she shared fruit with Adam, until she saw the golden tree that caught her eye.
    Delicious fruits and a Viper resting on a stone in the shade, catching attention of the woman's scent with a flick of a tongue and raising its head. 

     Viper
    Beautiful Eve, 
    Your eyes hold such lust 
    when they look at the 
    fruits of this tree, do 
    ye yearn to taste the 
    forbidden fruit and 
    be the equivalent of God?
    To be powerful, more so 
    than Adam and the man 
    who created thy body? 

    Innocent and naive Eve was frightened by the speaking snake, and she did not understand what it spoke of, 
    for she had no knowledge of things such as lust or being equivalent to God or Adam as possibilities or even that they existed! And so she fled, where God's voice boomed over her and sent her cowering onto her knees in begging for forgiveness. 


     God
    Foolish Eve,
    You dare speak with Lucifer 
    and consider such things? 
    You are woman, made from 
    my hand and man's flesh, 
    thy woman has no power 
    and no right to wish for 
    more than the watchful eyes 
    of thy God and Adam! 

    And Eve sobbed; she wanted nothing more than to be forgiven by her benevolent God. 

     Eve
    Forgive me, God, 
    I want nothing that involves 
    being more benevolent or 
    powerful than thee Lord or Adam! 
    Forgive me, for I was not 
    intending go against the word 
    of my most righteous God! 

    And so God forgave her before letting her go on her way, but Eve continued to think of this tree and eventually found her way walking back toward it slowly where the white Viper still sat resting on the stone. Again at her scent it lifted it's head and slithered to her, wrapping about her naked body and resting it's scaled head upon her bosom. 


     Eve
    Seducing Viper, 
    Please make me less ignorant 
    and innocent, 
    Allow me to be more worthy of 
    the watchful eyes of my Lord 
    and Adam. 

    And so the serpent brought Eve a fruit, the ripest from the tree and she thanked the viper before rushing to 
    find Adam so they might share this moment of opening their eyes as a couple. Adam ate it without hesitation as if it’s any other fruit that Eve have gathered before. The couple then rest under the cicada tree, Adam blissfully ignorant, Eve eager in anticipation. 

    Their world metamorphose groggy, trees were dancing, animals uttering language, land as if jelly jiggling, skies as if sea waves crumbling. Confused though amused were Adam and Eve, but rapidly, The amusing 
    world fleets and left them with a scene of grotesque filth, a birth. Then as though flipping through 
    history before earth, the couple witnessed, the war of God and Satan, chapters and verses and 
    everything that has happened and these erudition does not terrorize them as much as nothingness 
    and mortality they’ve learned, fatal. 

     Adam
    Horrendous Darkness, as though sleeping
    But waking never
    This holy garden, Ye god made us
    I want to leave never
    And my beloved Eve, I want to leave you never

     Eve
    My Love, wisdom I sought from the viper
    My passion to serve ye and thee Lord better
    Never have i wanted the knowledge of Evil
    Nor the horrendous darkness
    My beloved Adam, I want to leave you, never

     Adam and Eve
    Will God forgive us?

    Adam and Eve decided to seek forgiveness from God and renounce evil and the darkness, “God Help 
    Us” they dreadfully shouted, not knowing ye divine all knowing Lord already knew the happened. God 
    appeared 

     Adam
    Praise ye the Lord, benevolence 
    Please forgive our disobedience 
    The fruit of golden, we’ve eaten 
    Knowledge of evil, mortality, nothingness 
    How ye the Lord cometh, we’ve never wanted 
    We are deprived of joy 
    Please forgive and reprise us, paradise 
    And we vow never to disobey again 

     God 
    ATROCIOUS! how dare ye make demands after going against Me word 
    Me Adam and Eve, Me loved ye both, but this act Me cannot forgive 
    For Me has twice warned Eve 
    Ye both punishment, consequence, ye shall accept with grace 
    Ye both shan’t feel joy again 
    Though benevolent Me shall grant, My final kindness 
    Ye both shan’t feel fear, the evil and darkness 
    And ye fruit of your loins, after an Eon 
    Shall be reprise of paradise 
    This is the punishment and my final kindness 

    Glum were Adam and Eve though contended with thee Lord’s kindness, and they gracefully accepted. 
    The Lord performed a ritual; renounce history of good and evil, his birth that the couple have learned 
    and the knowledge of ephemeral mortality and the darkness that comes after. 

    What was left on Adam and Eve, only their primal instinct, the need to feed, the need for self 
    preservation and an instinct to have them spawning more Adams. Eat, Fuck and Sleep without joy 
    were what the couple will do for the rest of their mortality. 
    A century past, the couples retarded life grew on them, their bodies were covered in unsightly 
    hair, brown and filthy, and they smell of their own feces and piss.

    • Cinny X Freddwzz 2012

    Night terror


    As i lay on my bed
    Sideways, 
    how I've always slept
    A distinct inclement wind swept
    then on my bed it crept
    It weighs
    sank the bed a tad
    Malicious gaze, i felt
    on my back
    Smooth strands of hair 
    brushed across my neck
    and a breath of jasmine scent 
    gently blown on my ear
    i vaguely smelled and heard
    convinced, 
    another shares my bed
    My guts shrank and shrank
    then came unceasing screams in my head
    so agonizing it can shatter souls
    wish an end to this torment

    cast the die
    i snapped a turn
    ...nothing there




    5/19/2012

    ..

    Beyond the clouds 
    of purest white
    Visible in the afterlife
    Stood a floating isle
    of pure rainbow hues, untainted
    There lives a Lord, 
    with obsessive cleaniness disorder
    But a lazy sloth he is
    He doesn't clean, rather
    He flings the tainted 
    Forever out of his sight, 
    Adequate he finds
    So take a bath
    before your soul rise
    If your joy
    there to be found



    5/17/2012

    So you believe

    So your mom died
    now shes in paradise
    where families reunite
    never again terrorized
    Thats what you tell
    But why do you cry?
    As if a cello's depressing whine
    On an event clearly of joy
    blessed are those who mourn
    A make yourself feel better,
    Cliche full of shit.


    5/16/2012

    Man

    these harbringer of filth
    hacked off our limbs
    burned them to cinder
    ripped off our green hairs
    made it their shelter

    Edify themselves
    Undubious they're affirm
    That we cannot feel

    that poor fauna
    blasphemous, what she went through
    whilst they know she can feel
    still they drove a spear into her mouth
    and right through her arse
    burned on unforgiving flame
    til it suits their peculiar taste
    juicy or less juicy
    they then consume

    undubious they're affirm
    That faunae are food
    given to them by God

    even more bizzare and idiotic
    they murder their own
    this i cannot make sense of

    little do they know
    how dark and twisted they are
    and that We've already forsaken them
    their souls shall never live on paradise
    when their mortality ends.


    5/14/2012

    Cinny

    Cinny
    Her life was scanty merry
    Weather through shame, maimed
    Jiggly perservering flames
    Cinny
    But still galiently jolly
    Waging no war, never she defame
    pansophy she gained

    Cinny Cinny Cinny
    Chucked candy, more coffee
    Bitter but sophisticate
    The lingering taste
    rid of lucscious waste
    Cinny Cinny Cinny
    She, herself and her
    Undeluded from egoist knights
    Damsel never again distress

    5/13/2012

    Grace

    Warning, dark content should you highlight and read it. Wrote for a forum topic.


    Goddess I'd glimpse, 
    on my recurring dreams
    Yearn for her, materialized, 
    a collection, my possesion.
    Though chance no being, worthy,
    of her crowning beauty.
    Either imperfect or incomplete.
    Ungodly ephemeral, decaying.


    Fuck it, I'll just create my own;
    Immortal beauty.
    "Grace" her name, shall be
    Now the physical form
    Where shall I begin?
    Forgotten whores, non will miss


    Praise the lord, 
    forthwith commencement, my quest
    A blessing bestowed upon me, a crucial piece.
    A whore,
    Angelic facial features worthy of Grace
    Accompanied with dazzling blue eyes
    Inviting as though morning sky
    Spared from seeking, gorging another's eye.
    Paid her a hundred cash, 
    led her to my recluse.
    Longed for this head, 
    knocked her out cold.
    Dexterously severed it, for Grace's needs
    "My oh my, just the head! how graceful"




    "Great Success" , 
    Grace soon to live.
    Now, for slender smooth limbs.
    Effortlessly accessible, no sweat.
    Another vanished whore.


    Then, torso of a virgin, 
    untainted and godly
    One who took a vow of chasity
    Fundamentalist church, i prowled
    A naive, benevolent nun
    Glaring weakness
    welcoming exploit
    A believer, my guise
    Masquerading my intent
    We've become friends
    Cheese to mice
    Provincially laid trap
    ...


    Finally, assembled pieces
    As if a master tailor, me 
    Needles and thread
    Piece by piece
    The joy, God felt
    When he created men


    "grace.. Grace... GRace... 
    GRAce! GRACe! GRACE!!!"


    At long last, Grace...
    What was once, only a glimpse
    Now awaits my beloving glare
    My everlasting Grace in the cold



    5/12/2012

    Singularism - Human


    Loving another,
    an abstract emotion
    i yet apperceive
    a dogma
    i give no accredit

    psychosis narcissist
    In the name of Love
    blood red
    seldom rose red

    sanctimonious debauchee
    In the name of Love
    lust for skin
    never intellect

    mentertained,
    when love ends in chaos
    In the name of love
    Helen;
    God;

    hermetic sanity
    without worries
    overwhelming jealousy;
    sleepless night
    when you are not by me
    anguish thoughts
    fete

    anarchy peace
    without gender intellectual inequality
    absurd theories;
    shell asymmetry
    reflects wisdom
    facile thoughts
    who ought cook

    effortlessly appreciates individuality, me

    have no need to compare
    every mind intrigues
    loving one i'm reticent
    loving all my clandestine


    5/11/2012

    Medusa

    She is beauty personified
    Libidinous, the folks define
    Entrancing, window of her soul
    Her hair, golder than gold
    Juicy red, tantalising lips
    Her figure, beyond greek

    She a priestress,
    In Athena's temple.
    Took a vow of chasity
    Never she yearn to dishonor it

    Poseidon's visit
    Devastates her life
    Allured by her beauty
    Lust, he ravaged her divine

    Athena caught the sight
    Twisted ego, fueled with jealousy
    Furious frenzy
    "Hence, who cast eye upon thee, shall be petrified"
    A curse lay upon the sufferer
    Tragically beautiful "Medusa"


    5/09/2012

    Untitled

    A passion for mystery
    Ferret hidden wonders
    What is beyond those puffy white haze
    Flew beyond it, faced no halt
    A majestic black, solemn and forlorn
    Boundless nightmare should I travel forth
    ...Mysteries...Hidden Wonders...

    Adventurous spirit, no rebuff
    "To the edge, here i come"
    Dodged rolling stones
    Soared through this vast darkness
    A sign of life!
    Shining spirit glowing merciful light,
    A benign presence
    'Twas unable to speak
    Stayed by herside, kept me warm
    After a campanionless travel
    Rejoice for a spirit lives out here
    ...Boom... She imploded
    Dispersed, leaving no trace.
    She must've hated me.

    Must end this adventure with haste
    Crave to return where love is
    "To the edge, here i come"
    Whilst going forth, chance upon
    a garden of shining spirits
    Afraid of rejection, i evade
    Gliding right, to my suprise
    Distant glimmering lights, countless spirits
    Maneuver a clumsy somersault, tried to escape
    As though a giant halo
    They've encircled me with no spitefulness
    I fly forth,
    as if destroying their balance, they scattered
    but swiftly encircling me, once again
    Vaguely, leading me
    Uniformly, holding up this halo stance

    Mysteries and Wonders awaits me
    I shadow their movement
    Whilst holding a distance,
    Make certain that I'm inmost
    A mysterious wind swept by
    My amarantine seeping away
    Merciless needles prickling
    Cold.. A virgin to cold
    freshly felt
    Abruptly, spirits repositioned behind me
    As though ready for battle
    Me for a leader
    Solemn atmosphere, defeaning silence
    A monstrous pallid blue sphere, visible
    Aura emitting evil
    Nothing could live near
    My natural weakness

    Army of light, stormed the front
    Spirt's only offense, a self destructing foray
    Evil retaliates with solid ice spears
    Waves of collision on the evil sphere
    The beginning of a war, we fought forever
    Prolonged battle, chilling aura
    Stole my immortality
    For I've never known death
    Ought to triumph over Evil
    Muster up my remaining strength
    Released the sacred force within me
    My ultimate attack
    Vibrant red across the sphere surface

    Flame that shan't extinguish
    I left...
    though my "Wonder" immortal

    5/07/2012

    Underdog

    A man of law
    I aspired to be
    Worship me a hero
    "I Serve JUSTICE"
    But as i grow
    I learned, discovered
    How despicable the "law" is.
    Self interest hypocrisy
    I dismissed this false justice
    A gray sheep in a black barn
    proclaim to be white
    Without a goal, I lost my drive
    Diminished reason to read and write

    Scored a four lack of one
    a five might land me with a goody goody bunch
    Sent to a class,
    Full of wretched vile
    Parents tell their kids,
    to bully so not to be bullied
    and likewise does mine
    A vicious cycle, I disincline
    Loathe the time and the grind
    Can't stand it, I jumped the ship

    Found an outlet in film and arts
    fictitious world, fanciful poems
    Motivated to read and write
    To create, covey a world of my own
    But a tad late, I'm always late
    Bad in language, bad in math
    No paper to prove my depth
    stuck with the hour wage of six fifty
    struggling to move a limb in society,
    that dismisses my act as an irrationality.

    I'm lower than a dog in society's eyes
    No point in grieving
    I've become as nonchalant like a cat
    Ignoring it all
    Still dreaming for one day finding empathy


    5/03/2012

    Balance 1989 (Short Film) Review

    A thought provoking, surreal, dark and cold art film on society.

    The film is set on a balance board, with 5 human look-alike species living on it, the numbers behind their back is the only way distinguish between them. Each of them in order to not slip off from the board must accommodate with the other 4 to sustain balance. They moved to the end of the board and started fishing, one of them reeled up a box and it changes the "balance". The one who reeled it up wants to keep it for himself but a few curious others wants it too, and there's one of them who wanted just to stay on the board but got suckered into their conflict though they could've just shared it and retain the balance by positioning the chest to the middle. I guess it pretty much reflects on the society.

    Too many wealth hogging rich selfish narcissistic assholes around.

    5/01/2012

    A Meet.

    are you there
    are you not
    i am in despair
    cling to hope you exist
    for i cannot reason my being
    for an eternal oblivion i cannot accept

    i call out
    close my eyes
    open my eyes and you are there
    decorated with jewelry and gold
    grin spread like the waning crescent moon

    "i am but just a veil of your fears,
    you never needed me nor ever will."

    is he good
    or is he bad
    i am confused
    what appeared, wasn't what i'd thought out to be
    i sought, assumed a benignant presence
    not a repulsive superficial entity

    a test of faith, maybe?
    again i call out, earnestly sincerely,
    close my eyes
    open my eyes and you are there
    resembling features but in a poverty stricken state
    carefree gap-toothed giggle

    "i am but what you made out to be,
    you never needed me nor ever will."